kahilakon ko oi...ahak...
well even if muhilak ko doesnt make any sense...maybe an outburst of emotion og never makapawala sa pagkakalalaki ang muhilak in front of anyone...
well...
it happened 4 years ago...i had a very serious relationship yung tipong nag live in na me...we faced everything kay against man ang tanan...iya kambal, iya frends, even iya parents...what is bugtong kambal sila sa iya family tapos nasa abroad iya parents...buong tropa nya dili gusto sa akoa kay gidaot ko sa iya bestfrend na nanguyab daw ko sa iya bestfrend tong dili pa kami...imagine 3 years daw ko nanguyab sa iya bestfrend? wat is ang bestfrend nya nag act like a real loser so tanan kaila nila og kaila namo naiinganyo na mulaban sa bestfrend ni gf...og nahitabo na nobody likes us to be together...maimagine lang nako na having this sort of trials was indeed a test how i love that girl...and how she loves me...
miabot ang point na girisk nako ang isa ka fading relationship in the instant for the sake of this girl...RN na sya ako student pa going to grad by a sem na lang...
dili nako maimagine tong time na ginaistorya ko ni mama og ginahatag ang ako allowance...open kaayo me ni mama, shes the only one who understands me...i know how mama feels about the thing im doing the "LIVE IN THING" even dili nya gusto, pero sa mga relasyon never nagsay si mama na NO sa ako mga desisyon, i know everytime i left the haus i know mama is hurting, i know sobra ang kwarta na ginahatag ni mama sa akoa just to give me a peace of mind na dili me magkalisod ni gf sa paglive in pero wa kabalo si mama na ang iya ginahatag na money sa akoa is only a 1/8th lang sa kwarta ni gf...bigtime ang ako nakalive in...yung tipong kung mag allowance ko og 2,500/week ang iya allowance is 20,000/week...
diha pa lang makita nimo ang big difference...
things to consider:
pobre ko datu sya, sakit kaau isipon na "KUNG NAA LANG UNTA KO KWARTA MAS MAHIBAW AN NIMO NA UNSA TKA KAMAHAL" this is the thing that bugs me almost everynite... ang ako allowance paggamiton namo kung mugawas murag 1 way lang...ulaw kaayo mugawas me kay mahitabo na sya lang always mugasto... sa inyo girls it may sound so okay or mapride lang me mga guys pero for real...sa mga boys sakit kaayo na na kamo usahay magbayad...
end of the story:
nagbulag me, sakit kaayo sa side nako kay if you only knew how much i love her siguro masabtan ninyo...ginaisip na lang nako na graduating ko, ginaisip na lang nako na 1 night stand lang ang tanan, ginaisip na lang nako na bakasyonista lang ko, ginaisip lang nako na nagka amnesia ko...the reasons why we break up.... HER PARENTS WENT HOME FROM STATES, THEY KNOW EVERYTHING FOR HER TWIN SISTER MAKE A KINDA FOUL STORY, HER PARENTS CONFRONTED MY GF AND GIVE HER OPTIONS "WOULD YOU CHOOSE YOUR BF OR US?"
c gf is got a very hard time making out this decision...balo ko...nagpray pod sya na ako na lang unta...balo pod ko nalisuran sya...bogo na siguro kaayo ko if i let her decide to choose me...kinsa lang bah ko? naa pirmi ang self pity...pila ka months na ginaisip nako na "wow, when can i forget you?" "when would be the time that there would be no tears on my pillow?" "pila pa ka kaha na yosi ako mahurot just to break the silence" grabeh oi, i feel so bad with my decision to make the story end, ung tipong "ok lang sweetie na youll choose your parents, i love you but i know they will always be there for you, thanks for the happiest times of my life og naa ka being part of it" i just left with a smile and empty handed broken heart...
tipong lisod kaayo ilihok ang ako mga tiil just to walk away from the scene...it is indeed a peaceful break up but somehow the most hurting one...
panagsa lang ko maglove pero mutatak jud sa ako isip ang tanan na akong gibuhat just to prove how i love my girlfriend...
well...
im here now...moved on...being so happy with my someone im dying to spend my life with...im not that strong but i just think what is good for me... please be always careful of your heart...
and ako news sa ako ex, i think naminyo na sya, i think shes happy then...
ana lang kasayon ang kinabuhi, never forget na you got a future pa to deal with...
masakitan man ta sa gugma pero mas mag isip ta how to stand back from the failure...
wat a confession...